God vs the world

This controversial topic got people greatly deceived nowdays , especially the young generations . Most people base their decisions on their own logic or on what majority says, some people look up to famous and powerful people for life instructions  but few very few consider God`s guidance .
why is so important  to listen to GOD?? `Lets take a look at some clear examples:

SOCIETY (the world)

• SEX:.- Society promotes birth control such as the use of a condom (promotes sex), 90% tv nowdays promotes and portraits sex as a good and fun thing w/o making clear that must be practiced between husband and wife, ppl often says: " its ok if you "try" your partner before marriage to make sure you both are sexually compatible" .<< really since when  marriage should be based on lust and sex?? no wonder why theres many divorces now days >> consequences: abortions, soul ties(broken hearts), STD`s ,single  and young Moms, etc..

• MONEY : Society says: "get as much as you can" , "if you aint got it you aint nobody","money moves the world",  Tv promotes consumerism of unnescessary things, you must get this new item  or this recognized brand to feel important to prove your worth ?? << and thats why people are slaves to their jobs/money  and stress levels are higher than ever >> consequences: depression, stress, affliction, unhappiness, children w/o values, etc..

• OTHER ADVICES:  "Follow your heart ", "achive your dreams", "love yourself "," love those who love you" , << who told you this is your life ? since when you can decide when to live or when to die ?? >>  consequences of relying on yourself or on other humans : wrong decisions, many mistakes and disappointments, heaviness in the spirit, etc.

GOD    (the Bible)

• SEX:  God says : Flee fornication !(1Co.6:18), no premarital sex (1Co.7:8-9), no lust .(Matt.5:27-29) .God never meant for you to lose or hurt , he never meant abortions, STD`s, etc. thats from the world!

• MONEY:  God says:" Be content with what you have I ll never leave you nor forsake you" (Hebrews 13:5-6), "do not serve mammon/money, do not worry about tomorrow, I kow what  your needs are"  (Matt. 6:19:34), life isnt about how much money you have! (Luke 12:15) .God never intended for us to live worried or afflicted , thats from the world. 

• OTHER ADVICES:  God says: Follow me, do my will (Matt 7:21) , die to yourself( Matt 10:38-39), love your enemies (Matt 5:43-46), I got a plan for your life (Jeremiah 29:11) ,trust in me not in yourself (Prov. 3:5-6). Thats why he is God for us to rely on Him and cast all our cares upon him because he cares for us .

   God is always good , and like a caring Daddy he only wants the best for us  , next time you taking decisions consider his wise advicing .  ;)
       

"The Lord has appeared of old to me, saying: "Yes, I have loved you with an everlasting love; Therefore with lovingkindness I have drawn you."(Jeremiah 31: 3)

         

Its All About HIM

Now days ppl misunderstands the true meaning of being a bond servant of Christ (Pastors ,Teachers,Apostles,Prophets,Disciples,etc..) ,somehow we think that such "titles" give us power and self-glory, ministries around the world like to focus on how to bring more money or more people to their congregations, they have used "the Gospel" as a platform for a political career,self recognition and a way to a very lucrative business, we have forgot the very  ROCK OF OUR FOUNDATION.

 Right now ,I could talk bout MY life experiences over and over , I could tell you numerous stories about the mess God has brought me out of ,I could tell ya`ll how I got over this or how I got over that ,and Im not saying that doing all that  is wrong  but this is all you need to know and this is enough (The testimony of the Son of God coming to the world), because its all about HIM ,and I wanna redirect this all over again because this blog its not about me ,its about Him and for His glory and Honor.....

  Let nothing be done through strife or vainglory; but in lowliness of mind let each esteem other better than themselves.
⁴ Look not every man on his own things, but every man also on the things of others.

  Let this mind be in you, which was also in Christ Jesus:
⁶ Who, being in the form of God, thought it not robbery to be equal with God:
⁷ But made himself of no reputation, and took upon him the form of a servant, and was made in the likeness of men:
⁸ And being found in fashion as a man, he humbled himself, and became obedient unto death, even the death of the cross.
⁹ Wherefore God also hath highly exalted him, and given him a name which is above every name:
¹⁰ That at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, of things in heaven, and things in earth, and things under the earth;
¹¹ And that every tongue should confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father.
¹² Wherefore, my beloved, as ye have always obeyed, not as in my presence only, but now much more in my absence, work out your own salvation with fear and trembling  (Philippians 2:3-12)

Ponder this:
Do we have the mind of Christ or we let our own mind rules us? ,are we humble and obedient to the Father?, do we care for others or are we too busy getting our own? ,when we do somenthing for others do we give Him full credit or  do we take some of it? ....

 

So now  looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith, let us DIE to self daily (self desires,own mind own plans, etc..) and humbly accomplish what He has call us to do, lets not forget that we are receivers of an undeserved Grace. ;)

Glory to God

 Now to Him who is able to keep you  from stumbling,
And to present you faultless
Before the presence of His glory with exceeding joy, To God our Savior,
Who alone is wise,
Be glory and majesty,
Dominion and power,
Both now and forever.
Amen. (Jude 1:24-25)

I hate to be single

This topic caught my eye not only because I find myself in this season of my life, but also because I`ve heard from so many singles how hard its for them the single life.
"Single" does not necessarily means lonely and depressed, also isnt the opportunity to take advantage of the freedom and live loosely, however we should embrace this season of our lives and make the most of it according to God`s will .
I personally wasnt very happy about it.Sometimes I was at home feeling lonely,depressed,sad ,or in the other hand I was out making a mess of my life but in none of this states I could find contentment.
One thing I learned "life can be as beautiful as you want it to be" ,your happiness should not depend on circumstances such as marital status, I`ve also learned that marriage doesnt always mean happiness.

According to the Bible the Single life could be a true Gift:

"Are you bound to a wife? Do not seek to be loosed. Are you loosed from a wife? Do not seek a wife" (1Co.7:27)
^" But I want you to be without care. He who is unmarried cares for the things of the Lord—how he may please the Lord. But he who is married cares about the things of the world—how he may please his wife.  There is a difference between a wife and a virgin. The unmarried woman cares about the things of the Lord, that she may be holy both in body and in spirit. But she who is married cares about the things of the world—how she may please her husband" (1Co.7:32-34).

God`s purpose for our lives goes beyond the one of finding a spouse. Lets take a look at two successful singles in the Bible : Jesus whom lived a single life completely dedicated to his Father work, and Paul who was single when God called him to do his work and decided to stay that way" But I say to the unmarried and to the widows: It is good for them if they remain even as I am" (1Co.7:8)
 

Singleness could be the most beautiful season of your life ,it all depends on how you look at it , and theres many godly ways to enjoy this season to the fullest :

• Spending time daily with the Lord and doing his work, this couldnt come that easy when you are married for the many obligations that marriage implies.
• While you single you can let God work on you so you can be fully prepared to be the best spouse you can be and bring something to the table other than your body .

• As a single person you can make your own decisions , go for the things that you like and want, because you are unyoked , when you are married you have to consider your spouse because marriage is a yoke .

Now dont get me wrong I dont mean that you shouldnt get married  "But even if you do marry, you have not sinned; and if a virgin marries, she has not sinned. Nevertheless such will have trouble in the flesh, but I would spare you." (1 Co.7:28)  but before you think about marriage you should reconsider what are the real reasons you want to marry that person , because many times we are based on superficial reasons that vanish with time .(This was my own experience)
Be of good courage! enjoy your single life and make the most of it , this could be the best season of your life.
If you desire to get married ,leave the whole thing to God , trust in his perfect timing and matching, dont rush into it but If you think you are cool being single ,well pray for the strenght to have a successful life .

From my own experince I can tell you that I`m enjoying very much  this season of my life ! :)

 To God be the glory now and forever

GOD IS GREATER THAN MY SIN

That`s true God is GREATER than any sin , I `m picking on sexual sin this time specifically pornography because this is the modern addiction that its affecting our young generations,because once I struggled with it as well and because I know many so called "pastors and preachers" are afraid or ashamed to talk about it.

Ok, we all know that Internet and technology now days are very powerful tools that kids/teenagers are using for school purposes,information ,etc..matter fact who doesnt use the internet??  this tool is now days the main source of evil.

Back in the day... (if you can relate this is for you): Lets say I was never into porn but I was introduced to it and I never realized how bad it was until I was caught up in it .First it started with the "pics game" sending/receiving nasty pics with the random dudes I was dating, until it became a  normal thing to do.Then when I got in a relationship my bf at that time was an addict(I never saw it that way until I came to Christ),he would ask me for pics, he would ask me to do this or do that, when we moved together we would watch movies and stuff ,our relationship was based on pure LUST. At that time I thought it was fun but things started to get ugly, when I wasn`t around he would watch movies and certain websites and masturbate ,giving me the feeling that I wasnt good enough! destroying my self-esteem, and when we finally broke up I realized I was caught up with his bad habits, I was sneaking on websites thinking "I can stop this whenever I want" but true is I couldnt!  I was falling more into it instead, and  far from feeling happy and satisfied I was feeling guilty,ashamed,empty and defeated for my many self efforts to stop it because deep inside I knew this was wrong!

Then I finally came to the only ONE I knew that could help me ,CHRIST! I wanted ,SO bad to get rid of this bad habit,I wanted to be holy and pure as he wants me to be, I knew that even this was behind close doors and nobody knew bout it ,I knew God did so there was no point on ignoring it. So I started seeking The Lord so desperately,reading and meditating on his word, constantly praying,I had to make the decision to cut off all that wordly/sexual music that was poisoning my mind,tv as well,social media, etc..I had to clear my mind from all those nasty/wordly and evil thoughts and let God run my mind whit godly/pure thoughts and his word.

Here`s the thing no matter how big, or how bad ,etc.. YOU THINK your sin is ,God can help you but YOU have to want to change! you have to be willing to do what it takes," just like the athletes put the hard work to come out victorious", you can not come up to God with an attitude and be like "ok God change me if you can," this aint no magic trick that its gonna miraculous happen over night, you have to make the decision to cut off all the(impure/wordly) things that come between YOU and God`s holiness, you have to want it REALLY  REALLY BAD!!!!!!!! .

 if you struggling with sexual sin, I encourage you to take a min. and pounder this : is it worth the momentary pleasure for an eternity in hell? is my flesh ever gonna be completely satisfied?? am I willing to do what it takes to overcome my struggles?? 

Let me say this,In my carnal mind I used to think that living pure was impossible to do , but in God anything its possible "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me" (philippians 4:13) yes that is! God is gonna  give you the strength for you to remove all those things that are keeping you away from Him!

Come closer to God, I encourage you to read  2 Peter1:1-11 meditate on this scripture, verse 5 to 10 says :

 ^"In view of all this, make every effort to respond to God’s promises. Supplement your faith with a generous provision of moral excellence, and moral excellence with knowledge, and knowledge with SELF-CONTROL, and self-control with patient endurance, and patient endurance with godliness, and godliness with brotherly affection, and brotherly affection with love for everyone.

The more you grow like this, the more productive and useful you will be in your knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ. But those who fail to develop in this way are shortsighted or blind, forgetting that they have been cleansed from their old sins. So, dear brothers and sisters, work hard to prove that you really are among those God has called and chosen. Do these things, and you will never fall away. ^"

  Hold tight to the Lord  !

 check out why do I do what I hate?

 May God give you the spiritual strength to Overcome sin.

how listening to certain music affected my life

the truth is that I love music!who doesnt? music always has been a big influence in my life, as a teenager I grew up listening to D.Child, Usher,A.Keys,50 cent and many other artists. fact is that music does affects our lives in a positive or negative way either we notice it or not.
Heres the point a lot of "christians" struggle trying to let go of listening to secular music , SECULAR means not regarded as religious, spiritual or sacred which then is the opposite rite? well Jesus said who isnt with me is actually against me(Luke 11:23) now let me get back to my testimony.
Rihanna taught me how to dress and act like a h*e , Bey taught me how to run my man and 50 taught me how to be cold hearted. this 3 were my main on my Ipod , so while I was listening to Ri-Ri over and over I could care less what ppl think of me and dress with less clothes ,look like meat that attract dogs,be careless about my life,sleep around with boys and then wonder why they dont love me right.
Then when I went in a relationship I would try to run my man and tell him what to do and not to do , when we argued I would go all emotional and dramatic and play all those dramatic Beyonce songs and cry and cry the night away victimizing myself, smh...then when things got intense and we had physical fights over other women cuz we would listen to 50 cent  and think "you fk with me I get to you"  a very famous 50 cent line ,etc..

(me:Rihanna wannabe 2009)

I never realized this negative influence (this applies to t.v as well ) until I came to Christ, all this music sent a subliminal message to my mind that it showed in my actions, I was the 1 that says nah its only music I listen but I dont do what they say (big enemy`s lie) remember when the serpent told Eve "its just a fruit, nothing bad its gonna happen" well exactly the same!
Let me be clear Im not bashing nor dissing anyone the fact that I dont listen nor support their music anymore its  because  Im choosing God first ,(im choosing to be pure in body and mind) ,they are very talented artists but I think they could be using their talents to worship God.
Now if we say we love God we must obey his commandments and what it not comes from him then it comes from the devil theres only 2 options, The Lord says "do not love the world or anything in the world"(1 John 2:15)
It wasnt easy to get rid of secular music for me,the hard thing to do its to take the first step as you continue then soon it will be a habit a good one you will see, there`s so many diff styles of good Christian music that worships God and that also brings a positive message to your life I encourage you to check it out ;)..

Remember, God only wants the best for you!

More money ,more problems

Now days we live in a materialistic world , where looks and possessions play a big role to fit into this modern society or aleast thats what we been told.
Advertisers spend millions of dollars to entice us to think that if we buy more and more of their products, we will be happier, more fulfilled, more comfortable,they make us think that we need this things! The question is ,How do you respond to the constant pressure to buy?
As a single young lady back in the past I would spend my wk money every week  in new clothes,shoes and all this (unnecessary) things  to feed my vanity, to fill that void that I didnt know that only Christ can fill.This things momentary would make me feel good and happy but later on I would feel guilty for spending , its just like a drug, also, living in a entertainment city such as L.a. I would look at celebrities lifestyle and say to myself "I want that car or I want that house. I would do anything to get it".(rich and famous people are not merely happy nor satisfied with their lifes)
Chasing after money and things got me nothing but problems, affliction to my soul and sorrow.

Jesus advertise us in the bible to not fall into this trap.

•  He said: "Beware! Guard against every kind of greed. Life is not measured by how much you own." (Luke 12:15) The good life has nothing to do with being wealthy, so be on guard against greed (desire for what we don't have).
• ^" Now godliness with contentment is great gain. For we brought NOTHING into this world, and its certain we can carry NOTHING out.And having food and clothing, with these we shall be content. But those who desire to be rich fall into TEMPTATION and a SNARE, and into many foolish and harmful lusts which drown men in DESTRUCTION and PERDITION, For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evil, for which some have strayed from the faith in their GREEDINESS, and pierced themselves through with many SORROWS." (1 Timothy 6:6-10) (I could relate myself in this verse)
•   “Do not lay up for yourselves TREASURES ON EARTH, where moth and rust destroy and where thieves break in and steal;but lay up for yourselves TREASURES IN HEAVEN, where neither moth nor rust destroys and where thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also. (Matt.6:19-21)
•  “No one can serve two masters; for either he will hate the one and love the other, or else he will be loyal to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve God and mammon(god of money)."(Matt.6:24) (to God there`s not in between line he said no one can serve two masters)
• Do not love the world or the things in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him. For all that is in the world the lust of the flesh, the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life is not of the Father but is of the world.(1 John 2:15-16) (if we go after the things of the world we living carnally and not spiritually, because we are guide by sight and not by faith)

Now you can say Ok ,if I don`t chase after money, what am`I supposed to chase? Chase after Christ! He is all we need ! He said:

•  Let your conduct be without covetousness; be content with such things as you have. For He Himself has said, “I will never leave you nor forsake you.” (Hebrews 13:5)

• “Therefore do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For after all these things the Gentiles seek. For your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things(not riches). But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things(food, and clothing) shall be added to you. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. (Matt.6:31-34) (just chill and trust Him)

 God tells us to no go after riches but it also tells us that he will provide for our needs, all we have to do is trust Him and believe Him , but sometimes we doubt him at being God the provider ,and we decide to do things our way and we fall into the trap.We cannot doubt God at being God, everything He said in the bible, He said it for a reason, he knows whats best for you because He created you! He is a jelaous God and He doesnt want you to go after the god of riches(satan). The society, the media, might say the opposite but the only opinion you should consider in how to live your life is God`s .
We must learn to tune out expensive enticements and concentrate instead on the truly good life--living in a relationship with God and doing his work.
 Now lets take this good advice from a rich and wise man :
 “Vanity of vanities,” says the Preacher,
“All is vanity"
"Of making many books there is no end, and much study is wearisome to the flesh.
 Let us hear the conclusion of the whole matter:

Fear God and keep His commandments,
For this is man’s all. For God will bring every work into judgment,
Including every secret thing,Whether good or evil"  -King Solomon 
(Ecclesiastes 12:8,12-14)( I highly recommend you to read the book of Ecclesiastes)

To God be the Glory now and Forever.

God & Me 101

Psychologists and sociologists teach us that, the desire for association, is the ultimate of man's needs, we tend to look for others either if its just for company, thats our nature,loneliness is a feeling that nobody likes.

Fact is, relationships affect us either in a good or bad way.

The best relationship any human being can have its not with mom or dad, not with bf/gf or spouse, not with a human friend but with the Creator( God ). A relationship with the Almighty??? is that possible? Yes it is! 
what does this mean?

1st of all lets be real! Isnt annoying when someone else tells you what to do? like : you must pray ,  must read the bible,or you must do this you must do that? like you have to do things out of obligation? ugh! But it feels good when we do things because we want to, because we love to right? God wants you to come close to him because you want to not because you have to.

When I started seeking God one thing I knew I wanted the real one, the living God! I didnt want to be stuck in the same O repetitive prayer that gives me the feeling that Im talking to the wall :/ ,so I had to pour out my heart to Him totally nothing hidden, when you reach out sincerely to God  He helps you in those areas that you know you need help,gives you peace of mind and makes your path straight.                                     

     Tips to develop a relationship with God :

• Make time for it! : any relationship requires time spending you cant get to know someone if you dont spend time with him .wherever/whoever is important to you ,you will find time to spend with, so make sure you set God at the top of your list ,even if your flesh tells you not to remember you supposed to be controlling it not viceversa.
• Find a place: its important that you have a quiet place away from distraction to be alone with God.
• Worship Him: Worshiping God is always a great way to connect with Him,singing or listening to worship songs always sets me in a good mood.
• Talk to God and listen to Him: Make sure you pour out your heart to him everything! in your own words like you would talk to a friend , he is your friend! after you read the scripture listen to Him.

• Bible time: its important to read and understand what you reading, start a study program ask God for knowledge and wisdom ,not just read randomly thats not studying , I recommend you read John first then Matthew,Mark and Luke then continue through the whole New Testament. Also is important to meditate in the word , if you struggling in one area meditate on the scripture on that area. Dont you just read the Word, Apply it to your life! 

The tips above can be applied without order, the important here its to develop that relationship with God, as Christ with his church(the bride)Ephesians 5:23-25, be faithful to Him and acknowledge Him in all your paths,another important thing to make the relationship work is: no cheating!(doing things he isnt pleased with) because nobody likes to be cheated on , rite?

The closer you get to Him the more you will feel his love and support! From my own experience I can tell you that God &Me time its the best time of my day!

To God be the Glory, always!

I wanna know what love is

LOVE is something we all need , something we all desire is something we all look for ,consciously or unconciously.

As a kid I always had the love of my family I still have it now days,and Im thankful for that,but there was a season when I was looking for love in the wrong places.As a teenager I wasnt really into dating I was more into sports I was more like the tomboy type of girl, but as I started getting older and started seeing my friends dating and falling inlove I got interested ! I really had lil info about  how boys play " the game" but still I got in "the game".I started going to the clubs with the hope that I could find somebody "good" in there smh, I started dating random guys just to do not "be alone" ,having sex with them and trying to please them in everything hoping they could love me and marry me 1 day, smh,  living like this , just got me heartbreaks,soul ties,bitterness ,illnesses,unhappiness,etc.

It wasnt until my last relationship that went really really bad that I woke up!I was living a hell and I thought it was love! smh, It was cool for a min. but then like it had not solid foundation(God) it broke. Fighting, punches,yelling and tears was the daily doses of "love" for me ,and when it finally ended I was feeling worst than ever,I was feeling devastated, that I couldnt trust/love nobody anymore ,I turned cold and then I asked God "why ? why me Lord? ,all I want is somebody to love me" I needed an answer so I waited to hear from him and He said: " I have always been there for you, you are the apple of my eye,I have always loved you, I been waiting for you to notice me! and to come to me my child, you would`ve known if you had read my word"

• " Guard your heart above all else,  for it determines the course of your life" (Proverbs 4:23) 
•  "My son, give me your HEART, and let your eyes observe my ways." (Pr.23:26" 
•  He found him in a desert land, and in the waste howling wilderness; he led him about, he instructed him, he kept him as the apple of his eye." (Dt.32:10) 
• "Therefore humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you in due time,  casting all your care upon Him, for He CARES for YOU."(1Peter 5:6-7) 
•  ^" For God SO LOVED the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life."(John 3:16) 
•  "Let you conduct be without covetousness; be content with such things as you have. For He Himself has said, “I will never leave you nor forsake you"(Hebrews 13:5)
• and more........ 

From my encounter with God it self til now, He has shown me his unending,pure,unfailing and everlasting love in so many ways , through the people around me, through his word , I can feel his love around me, He has given me strength, peace of mind, happiness, He put a smile in my face again!,Im short of words trying to describe Gods love in here .All I can say I`ve found true LOVE!,

If you had tried everything else why not try Gods love? get to know Him , let Him love you, spend time with Him and He will blow your mind!

God is the 1and only that will always love you, like no other specially not a human.He will never fail you because He is the Lover of your soul!


God  bless you.

why do I do , what I hate?

have you feel like this before? that you know something its the wrong thing to do but you still do it and you dont know why u did it ,and then you feel guilty? well,I been there.

When we start walking the cristian life ,temptation and tribulation seems to be everywhere ,do not surprise the devil is trying to embarrass you in front of God just like he tried to do with (Job1:7-11), and  it looks like this perfect ,holy christian life is impossible to accomplish, but hey dont quit!

wherever our weakness is ,or our sin (fornication,lust,envying,wrath,etc) its like a ghost that it haunts us. I asked myself many times ,why this ghost comes back around ? I read the bible and pray, whats going on? well we must know a very important thing: the weakness is in the mind not in the body , so in order to be transformed we got to be renewed in our minds first.

Paul in the bible said:

•  For I delight in the law of God according to the inward man.But I see another law in my members, warring against the law of my mind, and bringing me into captivity to the law of sin which is in my members.... (Ro.7:22,23)
• And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind....(Ro.12:2)
•  This I say, therefore, and testify in the Lord, that you should no longer walk as the rest of the Gentiles walk, in the futility of their mind, having their understanding darkened, being alienated from the life of God... (Ephesians 4:17,18)
• put off, concerning your former conduct, the old man which grows corrupt according to the deceitful lusts,and be renewed in the spirit of your mind, and  put on the new man which was created according to God..(Ephesians 4:22-24) 

 This is where the transformation begins, in our MINDS , God made already a covenant with us :  “This is the covenant that I will make with them after those days, says the Lord: I will put My laws into their hearts, and in their minds I will write them,”(Hebrews10:16)

All we have to do is ask Him to renew our minds,and he will write his laws in our minds, and we shall not only read but also MEDITATE in his word : "Blessed is the man
Who walks not in the counsel of the ungodly,
    Nor stands in the path of sinners,
    Nor sits in the seat of the scornful;But his delight is in the law of the Lord,    And in His law he MEDITATES day and night."( Psalm 1:1,2)

Therefore meditation in the word of God is important to occupy our minds with Godly thoughts and not give any room to the devil because he walks about like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour.

"Let GOD run a marathon in your MIND"

To God be the Glory now and always!

good girl goes bad

Im just another person in need of God`s mercy ... 
and this is some of my life experiences..
When I fist heard of Christ I was about 12 years old ,back in the day I couldnt understand what  being a christian was about, I thought going to church everysunday and behaving in front of ppl was it,I basically felt into "religion" and it went that way for the nxt few yrs.

As I started growing up things started to change because at that time I couldnt undesrtand the seriousness of following Christ , I wanted to do things that people of my age was doing like clubbing, dating, drinking ,etc. (not always what evrybody says and does means its the right thing to do ) ,at home I didnt have the freedom that I wanted so I decided to move out ,this is when the nightmare begins.

My life was a complete mess, all those things soon become normal to me and I wanted more, I wanted to be famous and Rich, I was dating this guy that used to tell me "money by any means" and I believed that so he convinced me on doing all kinda crazy things for money, that relationship failed I thank God he pulled me away of that guy quick , but still I didnt want to submit to God!

A while after I enrolled in music school I wanted to be a singer not because I actually liked music but because I wanted to be rich and famous as I was doing that I got caught up in a relationship with this dude that did not know God and with bad habits(porn watching,smoking,etc.), knowing all that I still went in it, I thought I could change him smh , I put my job, and career on the side in order to be with him , despite all that, things went wrong so wrong that we had to break apart. I found myself pregnant and I aborted my child, I was caugh up in my ex`s bad habits,I was feeling depressed, with a lot of hate towards him and more terrible feelings,I felt helpless for the veryfirst time....(ppl usually make decisions on their own without consulting GOD first , then when things go wrong we like to complain to Him)
 ...and it wasnt until then when I realized that I had been going in cirlcles all this time and that I had put God out of my life ! so I decided to turn back to Him.
I had this hunger for God that I never had before I started seeking for him started to read and meditate on his word (the bible) and he always faithful answered me. 
Then,everything started making sense I discoverd the importance of making God #1 in my life and living under his rules, the importance of having a personal relationship with Him and much more... he opened my spiritual eyes(Job 42:5), took my pain away , the bad habits everything, today I can say in God I`ve found TRUE LOVE, TOTAL SATISFACTION , HAPPINESS and more..
 I let God wk on me and transform my life and the process continues I`m in need of Him daily !!

My life has a new meaning now and the goal is Christlikeness! (2Co.5:17) (Ephesians4:13)

TO GOD BE THE GLORY NOW AND FOREVER !