why do I do , what I hate?

have you feel like this before? that you know something its the wrong thing to do but you still do it and you dont know why u did it ,and then you feel guilty? well,I been there.

When we start walking the cristian life ,temptation and tribulation seems to be everywhere ,do not surprise the devil is trying to embarrass you in front of God just like he tried to do with (Job1:7-11), and  it looks like this perfect ,holy christian life is impossible to accomplish, but hey dont quit!

wherever our weakness is ,or our sin (fornication,lust,envying,wrath,etc) its like a ghost that it haunts us. I asked myself many times ,why this ghost comes back around ? I read the bible and pray, whats going on? well we must know a very important thing: the weakness is in the mind not in the body , so in order to be transformed we got to be renewed in our minds first.

Paul in the bible said:

•  For I delight in the law of God according to the inward man.But I see another law in my members, warring against the law of my mind, and bringing me into captivity to the law of sin which is in my members.... (Ro.7:22,23)
• And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind....(Ro.12:2)
•  This I say, therefore, and testify in the Lord, that you should no longer walk as the rest of the Gentiles walk, in the futility of their mind, having their understanding darkened, being alienated from the life of God... (Ephesians 4:17,18)
• put off, concerning your former conduct, the old man which grows corrupt according to the deceitful lusts,and be renewed in the spirit of your mind, and  put on the new man which was created according to God..(Ephesians 4:22-24) 

 This is where the transformation begins, in our MINDS , God made already a covenant with us :  “This is the covenant that I will make with them after those days, says the Lord: I will put My laws into their hearts, and in their minds I will write them,”(Hebrews10:16)

All we have to do is ask Him to renew our minds,and he will write his laws in our minds, and we shall not only read but also MEDITATE in his word : "Blessed is the man
Who walks not in the counsel of the ungodly,
    Nor stands in the path of sinners,
    Nor sits in the seat of the scornful;But his delight is in the law of the Lord,    And in His law he MEDITATES day and night."( Psalm 1:1,2)

Therefore meditation in the word of God is important to occupy our minds with Godly thoughts and not give any room to the devil because he walks about like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour.

"Let GOD run a marathon in your MIND"

To God be the Glory now and always!

good girl goes bad

Im just another person in need of God`s mercy ... 
and this is some of my life experiences..
When I fist heard of Christ I was about 12 years old ,back in the day I couldnt understand what  being a christian was about, I thought going to church everysunday and behaving in front of ppl was it,I basically felt into "religion" and it went that way for the nxt few yrs.

As I started growing up things started to change because at that time I couldnt undesrtand the seriousness of following Christ , I wanted to do things that people of my age was doing like clubbing, dating, drinking ,etc. (not always what evrybody says and does means its the right thing to do ) ,at home I didnt have the freedom that I wanted so I decided to move out ,this is when the nightmare begins.

My life was a complete mess, all those things soon become normal to me and I wanted more, I wanted to be famous and Rich, I was dating this guy that used to tell me "money by any means" and I believed that so he convinced me on doing all kinda crazy things for money, that relationship failed I thank God he pulled me away of that guy quick , but still I didnt want to submit to God!

A while after I enrolled in music school I wanted to be a singer not because I actually liked music but because I wanted to be rich and famous as I was doing that I got caught up in a relationship with this dude that did not know God and with bad habits(porn watching,smoking,etc.), knowing all that I still went in it, I thought I could change him smh , I put my job, and career on the side in order to be with him , despite all that, things went wrong so wrong that we had to break apart. I found myself pregnant and I aborted my child, I was caugh up in my ex`s bad habits,I was feeling depressed, with a lot of hate towards him and more terrible feelings,I felt helpless for the veryfirst time....(ppl usually make decisions on their own without consulting GOD first , then when things go wrong we like to complain to Him)
 ...and it wasnt until then when I realized that I had been going in cirlcles all this time and that I had put God out of my life ! so I decided to turn back to Him.
I had this hunger for God that I never had before I started seeking for him started to read and meditate on his word (the bible) and he always faithful answered me. 
Then,everything started making sense I discoverd the importance of making God #1 in my life and living under his rules, the importance of having a personal relationship with Him and much more... he opened my spiritual eyes(Job 42:5), took my pain away , the bad habits everything, today I can say in God I`ve found TRUE LOVE, TOTAL SATISFACTION , HAPPINESS and more..
 I let God wk on me and transform my life and the process continues I`m in need of Him daily !!

My life has a new meaning now and the goal is Christlikeness! (2Co.5:17) (Ephesians4:13)

TO GOD BE THE GLORY NOW AND FOREVER !